28 January, 2009

fun links!

go here and feel like an artist!


because itll just make your day

stay warm!

27 January, 2009

Lately I have been wondering about my desicion-making skills.
They are currently lacking in the "what am I going to do with my life after college" area btw....

But in other things, really, how do I decide what happens? Or, the big one, WHY do I decide the way I do. Am I setting myself up for failure and hurt? Is this a cycle I can break out of ever? I wish I knew because its time for change.

A huge burden was lifted off of me today. I should have said no a way long time ago, but now happened so there it is.

i wish you knew how often i still think about you.

26 January, 2009

No matter what my senior sem ends up being, I am invovled in the musical!

And its cold! Gumbo anyone?

21 January, 2009

One more reason

for why I am excited about our new President

He's black
and so is his family.

Maybe now the stereotypes about how black families work. Maybe now it will be ok to not speak "ghetto", to not know the names of all rappers. Im ready for change....hahaha I didn't mean it that way but, you know.

I'm glad and hopeful. Maybe my kids won't have to face that.

19 January, 2009

this weekend is the stuff college is meant to be about!
wonderful times with friends
baked mac and cheese
Friends (the show)

even though it was only the first week of the year, and this may not happen for awhile again, I needed this and had a great time!

plus i had a wonderful dream last night! and a little girl who i used to babysit is getting baptized today! God made this day perfect

15 January, 2009

Sometimes I sit and wonder, why do you care?
Does it bother you?
How come you never said anything until you thought it was too late?
What if it happens again?

and these thoughts, and the answers to them scare me. there is alot behind them that i sometimes cannot handle. i wish i knew a better way but i dont. everything seemed to be coming together before, why is it coming apart? is it a self-fulfilling prophecy or is there something wrong with me?

14 January, 2009

A friend has had a loss. A terrible one and I am unsure of what to do. Prayer is all I seem to be able to give

God is showing me just how much he knows my heart. Just how much my heart wants to change and giving me opportunities to do so. Thats incredibly amazing and awesome at the same time.

How terrified am I to make the first steps towards change?

On a different note, my room is still clean. Im actually eating three meals a day and intend to join Curves later this month. I like the part where I didn't make resolutions this year. Im already much happier than I usually am at this time every year.

08 January, 2009

Real Friends take the time to pick out the pink and red Starburst and include it in your way late (my fault, not hers) Christmas presents. hahahahahaha!
Today, I am packing my life back up into my suitcases and getting ready to hit the road tomorrow. It has been fun being oh so completely idle but Im ready to get back to....doing stuff.
This ought to have been my last semester. It will not be. I will be a college graduate this time next year. That means that I only have a short time to figure out what I intend to do with my life. Ack! I never planned my life out like other people do. My family (extended) has begun to ask if there is anyone "special" in my life....every other woman was married by the end of college why shouldn't I? But I am the theatre major, why not break another tradition? It was kind of a funny question, I got such a look of pity when I answered "No"....with a smile I might add, but they felt bad for me. Oh well. Maybe next time I am home for a holiday I can give them a better answer as to what my future holds....and seeing as that will be next Thanksgiving I will really need to be able to do that!

01 January, 2009

Happy New Year!

I hope you all had a wonderful time ringing it in!

This is indeed a resolutions post and if you read any further I would very much like you to post one of your own:)

That being said, my resolution this year is to be joyful and thankful. To look to God for answers because I cannot find them on my own and to keep figuring out who I am.

I am excited for 2009. 2008 held many, many ups and downs for me and though it held wonderful things (an actual part in a play in college....with lines!) I am very ready for it to be completly in my past!