and so the coundown begins

i love birthdays. especially mine because i get presents. and ill be the first to admit thats shallow.

but i dont care. i still enjoy it.

i also enjoy celebrating my friends birthdays. im happy they are friends, im happy they are alive, that God put them in my life...and i think that they deserve SOMETHING for putting up with me for my birthday.

I think that last years birthday (or rather birthday WEEK!) was the best ever. Before I left for school I got a car! and then starting Friday i think, we started celebrating. We went to Little Rock that night. Tuesday (my actual birthday) there were cards and flowers and a surprise in class that was well-collaborated with one of my teachers! and dinner that night with my roommates. Wednesday we had LOTS of lefover cake. and while we kept some, we got rid of the rest at Bible study. I cant remember what happened Thursday i think i had Fiddler rehearsal...which was still fun. and then, to top it off Bekah and I went to Little Rock Saturday. It was alot of fun! (btw, we should do that again). I dont think I ever felt so incredibly cared for (by more than my family) before. It was overwhelming, that people knew how much i LOVED birthdays gave so much of themselves to ensure my happiness.

but anyway, theres a month until im no longer a teenager. how odd.

someone actually made fun of me for never having a boyfriend.

and how was your day?

got a tattoo

so here it is. its on the inside of my left ankle. yes it hurt, but only a little. no i didnt tell my parents before, i told them after. and yes im keeping it clean just like they told me to.
any other questions?

im not quite sure when ive been more excited to see a movie.

Hairspray is coming out this friday (along with the seventh literary installment of Harry Potter but thats another post entirely). im sooooooooooooooo excited! like (and please notice i just used the word like) you have no idea. the songs the style im watching Oprahs special on the movie right now (cos John Travolta is like her best friend or whatever) and i nearly started crying. i dont think ive ever gone middle school girl on something entertainment-y before. i never went through the boy-band phase...most of my friends did, i dont go ga-ga over celebs (tho i do read People every week) so this feeling of ridiculous excitement is new

*SQUEAL!!!!!!!*

in other news.....friendship bread is AMAZING! ive got my own bag started. yay!

HAIRSPRAY see it. love it. i mean really John Travolta in drag! Queen Latifah, Michelle Pfieffer, Christohper Walken......PLUS that kid from High School Musical!

had fun in searcy this weekend. got to see a wonderful production of "you're a good man charlie brown" twice....for free! and got to spend some time with friends, a much needed break in a summer full of camp and mission trips and me.....by myself.
being back in searcy made me jealous, i couldve had a job there...and found somewhere to live im sure. been with friends all summer and been near the theatre...im lonely without anything to do..i dont really feel like myself without it.

a good friend came back home and im excited to spend some time with her. even though we both attend college in the same state an hour away from each other, we dont get to spend alot of time with each other because of our very involved school and socila lives.

last night i went out for much-needed sushi with my new friend ben (hes moved down here from mississippi to go to southeastern) then we drove around aimlessly for awhile and went to an improv comedy show which was immensely funny (sometimes they have off nights, but they were definetly on!)

whats going on with you?

in five days, i get to go back to searcy for the weekend!
i also have to write about 10 people at camp, send them a package, go through the things i brought home from school
all while watching two little girls 9 yrs. and 15 mos.

its gonna be a busy week.

sometimes i wish it werent taboo or really mean to just scream at people. or in front of people. that they wouldnt think you were weird.
because sometimes you just need to scream

its weird, ive just found out some things that make me see certain people in a different light. and not nessecarily for the better. its not a very good feeling, i looked up to these people at one time.
i dont know what to do.