fun links!

www.jacksonpollock.org
go here and feel like an artist!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8PqI12R8YNU

because itll just make your day

stay warm!

Lately I have been wondering about my desicion-making skills.
They are currently lacking in the "what am I going to do with my life after college" area btw....

But in other things, really, how do I decide what happens? Or, the big one, WHY do I decide the way I do. Am I setting myself up for failure and hurt? Is this a cycle I can break out of ever? I wish I knew because its time for change.

A huge burden was lifted off of me today. I should have said no a way long time ago, but now happened so there it is.

i wish you knew how often i still think about you.

No matter what my senior sem ends up being, I am invovled in the musical!

And its cold! Gumbo anyone?

One more reason

for why I am excited about our new President

He's black
and so is his family.

Maybe now the stereotypes about how black families work. Maybe now it will be ok to not speak "ghetto", to not know the names of all rappers. Im ready for change....hahaha I didn't mean it that way but, you know.

I'm glad and hopeful. Maybe my kids won't have to face that.

this weekend is the stuff college is meant to be about!
wonderful times with friends
baked mac and cheese
Friends (the show)
Nertz

even though it was only the first week of the year, and this may not happen for awhile again, I needed this and had a great time!

plus i had a wonderful dream last night! and a little girl who i used to babysit is getting baptized today! God made this day perfect

Sometimes I sit and wonder, why do you care?
Does it bother you?
How come you never said anything until you thought it was too late?
What if it happens again?

and these thoughts, and the answers to them scare me. there is alot behind them that i sometimes cannot handle. i wish i knew a better way but i dont. everything seemed to be coming together before, why is it coming apart? is it a self-fulfilling prophecy or is there something wrong with me?

A friend has had a loss. A terrible one and I am unsure of what to do. Prayer is all I seem to be able to give

God is showing me just how much he knows my heart. Just how much my heart wants to change and giving me opportunities to do so. Thats incredibly amazing and awesome at the same time.

How terrified am I to make the first steps towards change?

On a different note, my room is still clean. Im actually eating three meals a day and intend to join Curves later this month. I like the part where I didn't make resolutions this year. Im already much happier than I usually am at this time every year.