i built a beautiful house of cards.
and its falling down around me,
things i was expecting, and wanting are "just not working out"
plans have changed.
so maybe i can take enough hours to where i only have my senior seminar and maybe a goofy class next semester, oh wait, ive already prepared for that

its just so odd not to be required to be at rehearsals often

it almost hurts



no, it hurts alot.