Thats sort of what I feel like sometimes, not only an extra tag-along but also left behind. Its my weight that holds me back and I hate that. Im doing my best to do something about that this summer, but I can't help feeling regret that I never tried before, who knows what sort of things I missed out on.
Last night was just a huge reminder of this and as I sat, waiting for my friends to return....or to open a door I just wanted to cry.
but hopefully this summer will be different, hopefully i haven't set myself up for failure like i usually do and i can change.
but there is this little voice inside my head saying "no, you won't, why even try? nothing will ever change"
i wish that voice had a mute button