i judge people
like you didnt know
there's really no rhyme or reason for it, i just do.
but maybe you dont know that i judge myself twice as hard and twice as much as what is seen.
i compare and make life a popularity contest.
i make life a contest in general
because maybe, just maybe
if i get enough of what i see to be acts of love/attention (are the two really separate?)
i may let myself feel as if
im worth it.