i apologize for updating this thing with complaints.

today is a thankful day.
tell someone why you love them, show them you care
say Thank-You to God, He deserves it.

Last year at this time i was in a very different place than i am now.I wish i could pinpoint where i went wrong, but one thing i noticed was a thankful spirit. and i have so very much to be thankful for! dont you?

my heart hurts so much right now. i feel betrayed and used and worthless. and i dont deserve to feel that way. at all ever. i wish i had enough sense of self to tell you these things but i cannot trust that you will listen. you want to be with him, fine. but why do i get punished because of it? do i no longer deserve more than a bumper sticker? becuase im worth more that that. so much more. and im finally beginning to see that, cant you?

Dear TheAcademy,
Alan Menken was gypped tonight. I mean SERIOUSLY that crazy lyrical dance stuff from "once" won? SERIOUSLY!!!! Alan Menken wrote the music for "The Little Mermaid" and "Aladdin" and was nominated THREE TIMES for songs and he didn't win? Honestly, I demand a recount.

And what is our world coming to when this story can happen? Its a sad sad place to be living right now!


In other good news, The Mousetrap is OVER FINISHED DONE. And ive never been this excited for a show to be over. EVER. I dont suggest that anyone be the stage manager for their best friend who freaks out alot and you cant get away cos you live with her. And you cant say calm down enough...ever.Oh well, at least now i can focus solely on my show!! im really excited and scared. tomorrow is our first blocking rehearsal omanomanomanoman!

WOW! its been a really long time hasnt it?
i dont really know how to catch you up or anything......ill just say what i have to and move on ok :)

i have bronchitis. its painful. and keeps me up at night.
im lonely. its painful and......lonely?i have wonderful friends and all, i just never think they want to see more of me than they have to. I feel awkward around the ZP girls because i dont get to hang with them very much and my roommate now has a boyfriend (which is great...i mean they knew each other a week, but thats cool with me if its cool with them) which gives me large holes of time when im in my room. and im not really good at initiating things with others....so im in my room by myself ALOT cos we dont have suitemates or anything of the like......and, while being alone with your thoughts is good every now and again, its odd when it happens alot.
im overwhelmed! my classes are demanding of my time and its very trying to stay focused and alert in them at all times. Im keeping up rather well i believe, and in fact am working on being ahead *knocks on wood very severely* but its quite a different situation from what we had going in London! quite different indeed!
im exhausted. being the stage manager for a full-length show means alot more attention span than i have for most things in life! im doing better and cannot wait until i merely have to listen for cue lines to call the show!

alrighty, well thats all ive got for now. i hope you are all having a wonderful day!